At the moment I really feel like I’m the only one trying to resolve anything. I know that probably isn’t true, but I’m not getting anything from CC at the moment. I thought before I left that she had agreed to write journal entries, so that I at least had an idea of where she [...]
Archive for September, 2008
Feeling quite alone at the moment
Posted in Uncategorized on September 29, 2008 | 5 Comments »
visting the Buddhists
Posted in Uncategorized on September 28, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
CC has a quote she uses often in her sig line “Imagine everyone is enlightened except for you.” If that is the case, apparently what I need right now is the opportunity to work really hard, because that is what everyone is offering me. I went to the buddhist center today, the service was interesting, [...]
random thoughts
Posted in Uncategorized on September 27, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Kinda depressed today. Got a lot of work done, so that felt good. Going to the buddhist center tomorrow, that’ll be interesting. Definitely missing the family, and CC. I’m a little upset that she hasn’t really done any writing yet, at least not that she is sharing. I don’t really have a clue where she [...]
Minor Epiphany
Posted in D/s, tagged being a man, husbands, Laura Schlessinger on September 26, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
So, I think I had a minor epiphany today, from the most unlikely source (I suppose that is usually the case). I was at the bookstore, just kind of browsing around, and I saw a book titled “The proper care and feeding of husbands” by Dr Laura Schlessinger. She is not one of my favorite [...]
Thoughts for the day
Posted in Uncategorized on September 26, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Just random thoughts that I write down during the day.
How exactly does one lose submissiveness? How does something that once was so deep just go away?
God my body hurts, but it feels good at the same time. I was reading today in a beginning buddhism book that often if you go to a center to [...]
The view of grandmas
Posted in D/s, Taoism on September 26, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I meant to write about this the other day, but as I was on the road, I didn’t really have time. I stopped to visit my grandmother on the way out here. This was supposed to be the fall where I go to visit her and talk to her about poly, and introduce her to [...]
Strange Dream
Posted in D/s on September 26, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I had a very strange dream last night. I don’t remember dreams very well, so I’ll remember it as best I can. I went home after only being gone a week, and everything was changed. CC had grown a beard. Bridget spent the whole time on the bed crying. CC was also hiding something from [...]
thoughts for the day
Posted in Uncategorized on September 24, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
CC and I used to be able to read each other so well. These days it seems like all we do is misread each other. I think it’s a matter of our mindset. We are so fucked up right now that we both always assume the worst, which is almost never true.
First bout of jealousy [...]
Day 1
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged jogging, rape scene on September 24, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Well, I have arrived after a 2 day motorcycle ride. Was a good ride, a bit tiring, and kansas sucks (or blows more accurately). Woke up this morning at 7, did yoga, got ready to go running only to discover it was raining. Didn’t get a run in until about 10, I think I hurt [...]
Midwest hospitality
Posted in Uncategorized on September 23, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I really don’t know what to say to this.
