Well, yesterday was a fun filled day, both CC and Bridget were laid off. Exciting times in my household, we’ve pretty much decided that we can’t keep the house, which is sad, but a relief at the same time. Emotions were pretty high yesterday, we had some good talks though.
I think that I’ve been in [...]
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Confused
Posted in Poly, tagged benefiting others, break ups, buddhism, divorce on January 14, 2009 | 1 Comment »
Thoughts and Jessie
Posted in Poly on December 13, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Lots of thoughts today, most of them good, and I’ll to right more on them later. CC made a comment a while back that I have never liked her being with Jessie. I really don’t think that comment is being fair to me. Yes, I have had issues with her and Jessie. I was also [...]
The End?
Posted in D/s, Poly, tagged ending relationship on December 9, 2008 | 3 Comments »
CC asked me recently if we had reached the point of no return. I said I didn’t think we had, but we were rapidly headed that way. I kind of think maybe we have though. I started writing a list of what I felt I needed from her, but based on her last journal entry, [...]
Why jealousy?
Posted in Poly, tagged jealousy, Poly on November 23, 2008 | 1 Comment »
CC is the only person I can think of that I’ve ever been truly jealous over. Why is that? The first time I can remember feeling jealousy was when we stayed at the condo with K&L. I remember hearing her have an orgasm. She has always been difficult to get to that point, and even [...]
Daddy the Deserter
Posted in Poly, tagged breakup, kids, M/S on November 13, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Last week one of the boys told a friends mom that they were happy to have daddy back, but were afraid that he was going to leave again. It looks like that fear is going to come true, but it’s not of my choosing.
Regardless of how we present this to the boys, what they are [...]
Space and selfishness
Posted in Poly, tagged Poly, selfish, space on October 13, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Is CC actually selfish? Maybe that isn’t the best word. I’m not sure what is though. She devotes an amazing about of time to the family, to taking care of all of us and to managing and organizing. In the past she has devoted a lot to me. So being [...]
Labels, love, and protocol
Posted in D/s, Poly, ramblings, tagged D/s, labels, Poly on October 8, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I’ve always said that I hate labels, but that isn’t an entirely accurate statement. I hate arguments about labels. Get a group of poly or D/s people together, and ask what is the difference between poly and swinging, or sub and slave, and you’ll get a lively discussion, and in the end, even if you’ve [...]
Conversations with a paintbrush 2
Posted in Poly, tagged breakup, Poly on October 8, 2008 | 1 Comment »
More painting and thinking today.
CC is reading Proper Care and Feeding of Husbands right now, and her biggest complaint is that it puts so much of the onus on wives to control the happiness in a relationship. That was my largest complaint as well, because I think men can take a lot more responsibility than [...]
The Big Why
Posted in Poly on October 7, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Starting sometime in my twenties, my motivation became internalized. It was to produce a happy life for myself and those I cared about, to raise a famly (although that one came a bit earlier than I had planned). To be a leader in my personal and professional life. Often times my anxieties got in the [...]
Conversations with a paint brush
Posted in Poly, tagged negativity on October 6, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I’ve been painting most of the afternoon, and having lots of time to think. The next several posts are related to that. I’ve realized that my posts have become excessively negative lately. I don’t necessarily think that is a bad thing, I need to get that stuff out of my system. I’m also not going [...]
