About a month ago C and I met for a while and had a long talk. Part of what we talked about was how Masters and slaves should behave after a breakup. Should we just go our separate ways, and ignore each other if we happen to run in to each other, or should we [...]
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Changes in dynamic
Posted in Uncategorized on September 28, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
2 am
Posted in Uncategorized on July 12, 2009 | 1 Comment »
Here I sit at 2 am in a quite house, while the woman I thought would be with me forever lies in someone elses bed, never to return. Is this what is left for me now? I was at a party tonight and I didn’t want to come home, because I knew the only thing [...]
Civil
Posted in Uncategorized on July 9, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
How the hell can she expect me to be civil?
She took away everything I had. I thought I could depend on her. I couldn’t. I put 10 years of my life in to this family, she threw it away.
“these kind of things make it difficult to have conversations with you, or even want to”
Good. I [...]
amazing
Posted in Uncategorized on July 7, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
It’s amazing how fragile my psyche is right now. I already wrote about how I feel seeing her, well, tonight she messaged me saying “don’t have time right now, but…” and it just crushed me, I mean, I know that means she is going out. Could be dinner, could be more, but of course my [...]
Seeing her
Posted in Uncategorized on June 27, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
It seems that no one seems to realize that seeing her tends to ruin my whole fucking day. I almost always end up either angry or sad. More often than not lately it’s angry, often times over things not quite her fault, like the boys have picked up so many bad habits from Jessie’s teenage [...]
Life without kids
Posted in Uncategorized on May 25, 2009 | 1 Comment »
I have to admit, there are some things that I’ve been looking forward to as part of C moving out. Having time with just Bridget was pretty high on the list. But I realize, it isn’t that I don’t want C here, it’s that I enjoy time without the kids. It occurs to me this [...]
Where do we go from here?
Posted in Uncategorized on May 19, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Last night Bridget said she wish I would let go of my pride and just ask CC to stay, express to her that I still want her here. So tonight I sat down and I tried to do that, I tried to write down exactly what it was I wanted from her and [...]
Moved out
Posted in Uncategorized on May 19, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Well, she officially moved out last week, probably the last time she’ll stay here, and the last time I’ll see her for quite some time. Not sure what to make of that. Sad and relieved at the same time.
Last night I asked the little guy where home is, and he said at Jessie’s, because that’s [...]
Windows and Blogs
Posted in Uncategorized on February 19, 2009 | 2 Comments »
I’ve seen a lot of comments on my blog about how I’m always down, or always thinking about CC. And Bridget has received a lot of comments on her blog about how much I don’t appreciate her, or am taking advantage of her, based in part on some of the complaints that she has posted [...]
Lonely
Posted in Uncategorized on February 19, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I’ve realized lately that I’m feeling pretty lonely. At first, I couldn’t figure out why, I have Bridget and I definitely enjoy my time with her and how our relationship is developing. But then I realized there are a lot of things I got from CC and shared with CC that I don’t have any [...]
